whoa...

i haven't posted in a while.

kate came this weekend and it was so good to see her. i love how it's only awkward for a second and then it's like we've seen each other every day since we graduated. she's such an awesome friend and i'm still glad we are just as close everytime we get to visit each other. :) it's comforting.

we didn't do much at all this weekend. we slept for most of it, haha. it was still bunches of fun though. we had a party at susie's. i funneled two beers and had like four more or six more. i can't really remember. alex funneled like four beers. he's a pro. susie drank a whole bottle of mad dog and got sick and passed out. we played "never have i ever", the dirty version. it was fun...but i didn't get to drink lots because i'm "inexperienced", which sucked because i didn't get to drink with everyone else, but really good because, well, it's good, haha. after susie passed out, alex, kate, and i had deep conversation on the front porch...or as deep as you can go when you're gone. it was fun.

i love my life right now. it's all kinds of perfect. i have great friends, the type of friends who encourage me and love me for all of my weirdness and imperfections. alex, josh, and hannah are so good to me. they deserve an award or something. maybe i'll make them something...haha. i love how everything works out for the better, even when you think it won't. i don't regret a single thing i've ever done in my life because who knows where i would be if i hadn't said or done one thing that was a big deal or big change. it's a comfort to know that right now, i'm right where i need to be. getting rid of all of the negative influences in my life, changing my major, knowing the whole truth about my parents, and gaining so much self-confidence in myself in the past two months has really brought so much happiness to me, as strange as it sounds. i'm much happier now than i was six months or even a year ago. it's such an amazing feeling and i thank god each and everyday for everything he has given to me and taken away from me. i am truly blessed and love everything and everyone i have in my life right now. i am truly happy! :)