drama...

today i went home to aiken. fun? HELL NO!

on the way there my dad calls and discusses this gay situation he is in with me, which upset me, and i cried from greenwood until i got to his office. i got there, didn't say "hey" or anything for that matter to annette or sydney because they piss me off and stick their noses in crap that has nothing to do with them. apparently annette is an expert on MY mom and dad's divorce and finds it necessary to spell out THEIR divorce decree to me and michael. i should have yelled at her about that but i said nothing the whole time i was there because i was emotional and if i had, i probably would have cried to where i couldn't talk. sad, i know. it sucked balls. i hated today, except for the end of it, but that's another story. anyways, annette pointed out crap in the divorce decree. i remained silent, making no eye contact with annette the entire time i was there. after reading it all, my dad asks me, "kelly, you don't have any questions?" and i said "no. i'm tired of it all and don't want to know about it anymore because i get stuck in the middle." then annette chimes in (hate her!), "uh, honey, it's your family, you're going to be stuck in the middle whether you like it or not, and it sucks but deal with it!" why does she feel like she can say shit like that to me and it be fine? i just sat there in silence. i told my dad i needed to go set up the bank account so we left. i never said a single word to syd and i left without saying "bye" to either one of them. personally, i think they are horrible people. they talk crap about people they have no right to talk about because they have no idea who daddy was in the past and how it affected all three of us kids. he was and still is a terrible father. eric is more of my dad than my own dad has ever been, and right now, i see him walking me down the aisle when i get married than my own dad because i don't see myself talking to daddy in the future at all. this shit has gotten out of control and i hate it.

anywaysss...daddy and i went to the bank. while sitting in the lobby waiting, i sat quietly, not wanting to be talked to and my dad asks, "kelly, did you say goodbye to annette and sydney? they never did anything to you." that set me off for some reason. i said "daddy, i can't talk..." and started crying. it was bad. i couldn't stop for a good few minutes. i tried to hide it as good as i could and eventually gained composure. we met with the lady. i left and went to see laura...at south aiken...the hell hole i attended for high school. after the emotional day i had already had, i about had a panic attack walking through those front doors, seeing old teachers and avoiding them as much as i could. i hated it there and it was the worst four years of my life. after all of that, i took laura to tennis. then i went home to see the love of my life...taz! if there's one thing that will cheer me up no matter how sad i am, it's taz. i love him so much! i left aiken around 5 and got back around 7.

to cheer me up, hannah took me to clemson. we went to ben's apartment and watched a movie. davis and josh met up with us and we went to waffle house. after davis and josh left, me, hannah, and ben sat in the back of his truck and talked until 3am. it was fun...and sketchy. the cops came twice. alot of drunk, obnoxious people...three of which found it necessary to talk to us and dance for us...awkward. i will say hannah knows how to cheer me up after a long emotional day of family drama. it was a nice end to a crazy day. :) she's the best.

my first class starts in like 7 hours. crap. i need to sleep. it will be religion and environmental science tomorrow morning. fun stuff. ugh. summer was too short!