waiting game...

so life for me is always a waiting game. i think it's dumb. god knows it's good for me to learn patience i'm guessing. i'm so tired of having to wait for everything good to happen. i'm not good at this. in my heart, i know it's right, but noooooo, i have to freakin wait it out. whyyyyy!?!?! i need prayers like whoooaaaa!