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to update you all on my "addy situation"...i didn't win one...yet again. i entered ivy leaves and my goslon type spec book. you think it won't affect you at all when you don't hear your name called, but it does. i didn't hear mine, and once again, i got that feeling, like i wasn't good enough. luckily i'm a master at hiding my emotions or i would have burst into tears. that would have been embarrassing. granted, that feeling only lasted an hour or so, but nonetheless, it sucked. i entered three things last year and two this year. i won a national AIGA competition but i can't win a regional competition? it bothers me. it doesn't prevent me from trying harder and pumping out more work, but it is sort of discouraging. at least there's a ton of work i have going on this semester that i'll be able to enter next year. i've always been competitive and hate losing, so i guess that's my main problem, but it does hurt a little when you send one of your children off to win an award and they come back with nothing in return...well, at least now i know what it would feel like to be a pageant mom.