inevitable...

lately, i can't keep myself from thinking about this upcoming last semester of mine. i don't want to grow up and live in a world where college is a thing of the past. i would love to stay in school for the rest of my life if i could. being in an atmosphere where everyone is in one place for one reason has been comforting. it's been hard thinking about how this monday will be the last first day of class i'll ever have. so much about my life has changed in the past six months, i can't help but want to run the other direction, away from maturity and responsibility. my friendships are changing and evolving and it's becoming harder and harder to hold onto certain pieces of my life i once valued more than others. i'm more emotional about growing up than i let on, and quite frankly, it scares the hell out of me. i never thought this time would come, when i would be preparing myself for my last semester of college. i never thought i'd have to actually grow up.

i wish every single one my friends understood how sacred this semester is. for the most part, i think they do, but like everyone, including me, tends to eventually do...we'll all get busy with whatever is consuming our lives at that particular moment and take the time we have left for granted, just like we did last year. we'll have stupid disagreements that ultimately end up wasting the valuable time we have left together. we'll spend too much time sleeping rather than enjoying the last months we'll have to act like "children". we'll complain about how much school work we have to do and put it off until we can't put it off anymore. we'll go home some weekends and regret it because we missed some of the fun that went on without us. we'll talk crap about things we don't know anything about. we'll get mad at each other. we'll get annoyed with each other. we'll make fun of each other. we'll be insensitive. we'll be disrespectful. we'll be stubborn. we'll be naive. we'll be immature. we'll be idiots. we'll be cry babies. but what's worse, is that we'll easily look over simple moments while they're happening. we won't even recognize the value of those moments until we're too old to relive them. until they're long gone and mean the world to us.

all of those things, i'm hoping doesn't happen this semester. the last semester of our college career (well, most of us). i'm hoping we love each other as much as we know how. i'm hoping we embrace those around us for who they are. i'm hoping we cherish every minute of time we have left to spend together. i'm hoping we laugh until we can't breathe and give to each other until we have nothing left to give. i'm hoping we're sensitive, respectful, open-minded, wise, mature, intelligent, and strong. i'm hoping we see those simple moments for what precious times they are and hold onto them like they're the only thing we have left.

the future is approaching. i'm rejecting the inevitable change that's upon us all, and i'm praying for us all to embrace it as best as we know how. more so, i'm praying that we can help each other through what is known as "growing up"...and that we never have to do it alone.

here's to becoming a real adult.

"may these memories break our fall."