impatience...

i hate waiting for things to happen. when things come so easy with someone wouldn't you think they would see it too? i don't understand timing. i don't understand not knowing what you want. i don't understand alot of things about the situation i am in and i wish i did. this sucks. i hate not knowing the future. uncertainty and impatience will be the fall of me, i am sure. uuggghhh!

i stayed at work until 12:40 tonight. frederick has no life apparently and just loves to keep people past 10:30 because he can. i got the schedule for next week and i held back the tears when i saw that i was working every day except tuesday and thursday. i'm not going to get to see my family this year. if i do, it won't be like every other year in the past. i love my crazy family. this is ridiculous. i hate people who have no families or no joy and love to suck the life out of other people as well. i'm not going to work on monday or wednesday and if they have a problem with that, they can suck a big one!

I'M SO FRUSTRATED WITH EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW!!!